Monday, November 1, 2010

what a day~

i can't imagine they hurt me alot....huhu.....nowdays i've been so emotionally uncontrolled..huhuhu...sometimes lost my temper....huh...i cant handle it anymore....please help me~

Saturday, August 21, 2010

timeline~

everyone has a mistake in their life...but sometimes we are not mean it...huhuh...i hate when people judge us badly when they dont see it with their own eyes...people..*sigh* what should i do when someone judge me like that....i just wish a good thing...not a bad things..huhuh..i dont really understand when people say im enjoying myself here....eventhough they know where am i going,with whom....when i come back...or maybe shall i live a worst life here? no way man...for me..'enjoying' means going everywhere,without limits,dont bother bout people around you.doing thing you not suppose to do...for me,i just filling my empty space of life...just cant stand with my work....i just hanging around wif my friend...but you know rite?what else,you want me to do bout you? did i ever complaint when you diong the same thing? i just forgive and forget..thats it...but when it goes to you,who am i? am i a prisoner..? how am i goin to gain your trust in me? i just need your trust...please~ i beg u ...

Monday, May 31, 2010

Say OK - Vanessa Hudgens




please say ok baby......please say alright....dont run away...

Stay

this is my heart

this is my heart...broken ito pieces...im wondering..who am i exactly in your heart.....if its not you begin this friendship...i will not fall in love with you....when you say you love me...me feel have new strength to go on....its all about you who turns my life like this....i just can't forget this feeling....everytime i think of you....i will remember what you'd taught me..all this while i keep my promise to you....sometimes i felt that..even you far away from me....i still can feel you here with me....i just cant get rid this feeling to you...even my heart already said will not appear in ur life line..but bottom of my heart still hoping someday you will come to me....someday you will know how much i love you....someday you will know why am i let you go.....everyday..i just pretend to be happy but down deep in my heart...there is sadness...i just cant let you go.....please come back to me....i need you....huhu..*________*

Monday, May 24, 2010

Life like this~

hurm.....how is it ar if life not like this..i hate it so much when it comes like this..if i have know it just from the beginning..i surely not involve with it..huhu..but im not regretful...coz..this the way that i choose...arghhh..hate it so much.....but like you said...'who is me,?' me oso have to said like that....but i just ignore it...i tried to explain to you but....seem you will not understand me.....i just hate to be like this.....please help me to see what's goin on with me......arghh....k..i oso dunno what to write...

Thursday, May 6, 2010

x Japan - Tears




when my heart in tears..i prefer to listen this song~.... sorry guys this is how i represent my heart..to express what im feeling right now..hope you understand....heartache broken into pieces...does my dream was true?...i just dreamt of you..telling me that..you still in love with someone...that was my dream....last few days...im afraid it will surely happen to me...does 'she' exist? does my dream was real?..arfgghhhhhh just ignore it!...i hate this!.....someone you really love done this to you? whats the point? huhuhu.....im hopeless....~thinking what should i do~//......huhu...god please give me strength.......give me some guidance.....huhuh...~speechless~

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

hate my self~

kenapa sampai begini perasaan saya? saya pun tidak tahu......macam2 dalam fikiran saya skarang.....dalam diam saya menangis...tiada siapa pun yang tahu...siapa yang maw dengar tangisan hati kecil ku ini? mula2 saya cuma boleh chase it away..tapi bila macam nampak berterusan rasanya....harapan yang ku simpan hampir musnah...apa penyebab?rasanya macam maw bersendiri saja malam ne...tida maw diganggu...biarlah....fikirlah apa saja.....sakit hati bila saya gtau hal yang betul difikir lain..siapa tidak sakit hati....pernah saya pertikaikan hubungan kamu dengan sesiapa? pernah ku bertanya ka? kalu memang saya ne tidak lagi dalam hatimu...janganlah buat saya sampai macamne..saya pun ada hati juga...satu saja pintaku..kalu kamu memang ada orang lain gtau saya..tu saja..bukan menuduh tapi...pemberitahuan...kalu saya sampai tahap begini...pa2 pun sy ble buat...saya tidak maw tu..pa kata hati saya tu yang saya buat....jangan sampai saya buat camtu...kadang2 pertanyaan tu membuat hati luka...apa patut dibuat? ditanya salah..tidak ditanya pun salah..apa patut dibuat..huhuhu...biarlah malam ne saya ditemani oleh airmata saja..bukan orang taw pun....ketawa dalam tangisan pun mungkin orang tidak tahu....biarlah saya saja yang tahu,,bukan minta simpati tapi ne saja luahan hati saya....biarlah,saya sorang yang tanggung....asal saya tidak kacau hdup orang len.....kalau ada hati yang tersinggung..saya minta maaf.....selamat malam...malam ne maw rehat..sakit kepala.....emosi inilah yang membuatkan saya sakit...huhuh...no more illnes!....

Monday, April 19, 2010

thanks for the day

hurm........sorylah baru hari ne saya update blog ne..huhuhuuhu..sory ek..hihihih..papa pun have a good day my fwen.....sory kalu da terkasr bahsa sama kamu..da terseliuh cakap....yang buat kamu sakit hati.....saya minta maaf[selalu minta maaf ja taw] sebab tu ja ayat yang sy taw cakap..huhu..jangan marah saya ar......sebenarnya saya boring ne duduk di rumah sorang2.....tadi saya tingu TV2...ada cerita tu melayu tajuk dia Maai Menanti........slang dia kan sebijik sabah punya slang bah..dorang buat shooting di lahad datu..begitulah bahasa kecintaan saya tu..hihih....masih tida lupa bahasa saya yang satu ni..hih walupun ada belajar sikit2 bahasa hokien di penang sama bhs mandarin...hurm tetap tida lupa juga tu bahsa sabah bah..hihi masih ada lagi tu bahsa...eh pa bah sy cerita ne...saya maw tulis saja ne niari..hurmmmmm...heheheh tadi sawo sy marh kali tu.....saya kasi biar2 dia bukan bermaksud saya maw kasi biar2 dia juga baitu tapi saya masih sakit hati bah sikit..maw kasi luah enda maw..dia lagi yang merajuk nanti...huhu..nemaw la...susah betul ne hati yang saya maw jaga ne......tapi saya sayang..hihih...hurm..maybe maw jalan2 ne sana kadai nanti tguk2 barang pa yang cantik..hihihi..jalan2 seja..biarlah boring bah saya dirumah....hurm.....pa la sy maw buat ne ar/ tulung bha suggest sama saya.......saya dengar lagu saja ne skarang..hurm betul2 bosan....penat sudah maw tidur..heeeee....saya p cuci mata seja bha..hihih..

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

hate this!

kenapa macamne? huhuhuhu..adakah salah kalu saya bertanya? sudah saya tanya bagus2 tida dijawab dengan bagus....sepa tida geram.....saya pun da hati perasaan juga....kalu sudah ditanya bagus2 jawabla bagus2..ne tida....bila saya diam saya pula disalahkan..huhuhu...manada mood lagi maw jawab soalan....cakapla bah bagus2... macamla saya ne ada sixth sense taw semua...kalu buat begini salah buat begitu salah...huhuhuh...biarlah....

Friday, March 26, 2010

hurmmm lagi...

happy hati bila da urang yang betul2 maw jaga kita...sayang kita,ada di seblah kita kalu kita lonely atau happy kan.....bestnya dunia....tapi kalu sudah ditinggalkan memang pedih hati..tapi pa pun semua tu mengajar kita menjadi dewasa kan..bukan selamnya kita jadi muda...hati kita kena jadi matang juga..apa yang baik pa yang patut kita fikir2kan tu..jangan terlalu ikut hati nanti jiwa sendiri yang merana..kalu tak pandai main api jangan memandai maw pasang api nanti tia taw pula maw padam..kalu ada kepakaran memadam tida apa tapi kalu parah susah maw ubat...ne nasihat sja....pa yang baik ikut pa yang tida baik jangan ikut...nanti merana....salam~

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

hurmmmmm....

semua kawan saya sudah kawin smua yang muda dari saya pun suma sudah ada anak ne...bha.....cian gma sayta ne selalu kna tanya bila ko maw kawin? malas sudah maw jawab soalan dorang....kalu bleh jangan tanya bha..saya boring sudah..biarlah dorang kawin awal2..dapat anak banyak2..hihi....kecewa juga bila kawan2 gtau dorang maw kawin sudah suruh datang tapi tak dapat datang ne..hiuuhuhuhu...sodeh hati......my bestie pun 2 orang sudah kawin.....hurmmm......harap2 dapat tengok salah sorang dari dorang kawin...tida juga kecewa memanjang..huhuh ne la kalu jauh betul bha....