Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Be thankful....

hi long time no see see kaabohhh....baru sikarang ada semangat mau tulis ...for the past 4 months (i guess)i've been throgh many things in my life...im a fool afterall, for everything i did u never appreciate it, i give you things, and u said...actually u didnt like it.its hurt me the most..i did prepare sumthing for you on valentine but..seems u dont like it... so i just keep it, will throw it soon... u will get angry if my male friend start talking to me.. but in the end u still adding "Girls" on your facebook, but i didnt say anything..thats your choice i cant controll it.. u get angry when sean talk to me,and i really2 didnt talk to him at all....but still u didnt believe me. i send a picture of us,but i know u hide it from everyone...then take it out.seem its not important.....then on 25 feb is the day....i didnt get angry that time...the day u said that was the end of everything...i wont argue anymore..i didnt mention it at all..since you the first who wanted it the most... ok.. fine..when you ask me not to tell you where i am going, i still told you, u didnt appreciate it at all... what i get??u get angry....and im get scold...when i didnt tell u where im going u will get angry too...so what am i suppose to do? tell me if your jealousy worth or not? what else i should do if you didnt trust me at all? when you said you go out with your friend... i trust you..thats why i didnt ask much...but im the one who blame.... im still the same from the day you know me ,before and after...but...life taught me everything... i hope its still can be saved when the day i ask u to arrange ur time to meet me while i was there on 1 week vacation....but i didnt get any news on it.... the day i step in to the aeroplane leaving home.... i started to cried...and i know... that was the end of my hope...now im not hoping anything anymore...nothing left for me... thank you for everything...will remember the memories..now i guess you've found one... may she will be your light,ur courage,ur life partner ...May God bless both of you..... my prayer always be with you... sorry for everything....

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

deep down in my heart

kenapalah kita harus bergaduh,huhu rasanya macam budak kecil... Sayakah yang tidak memahami atau ini memang dugaan...For For the past few days i was so happy... I prayed so much so it will last.. But i didnt know why is it has to be likethis Maybe ive done so much wrong and getting this as my punishment... I know im not perfect tho im human and do mistakes but for sure when i done wrong... My appologize is not enough.coz im still the same oyoe that you know before... but i tried to solve this. But diddnt know how am i going to do it anymore.. Huhuhu... I hate been crying for the whole day and not fall asleep at night... Waiting and waiting for no reason is much painful then hinjured you leg.. I know im not good... i feel weak.. I feel down,sometimes discouragement fills my heart.... Oh i must be a fool afterall... God help me to get rid of this... I know im not your good chhild but i do my best... Please bless me n him as we go through this its not my wil... But let it be according to your will.. Guide our path as we walk together..in everything we do everything we say. .. Amen

Friday, November 16, 2012

itu ini

beginilah kalau hidup merantau kan...bukan depan mata..apa kana buat misti ada keraguan disana...harap2 sa pun nda ragu2 mau hidup laini begini....kalau hidup sentiasa diselubungi keraguan untuk apa mau hidup laini....macam teda maksud....mati lagi bagus...eh hilang ingatan lagi bagus....supaya nda ingat...sekian bai.... mau bedj laini supaya sa dirumah saja nda ada la keraguan melanda kalau keluar saja dari pintu rumah...

Friday, March 23, 2012

hari ini

haiii semua....rasanya..macam teda apa yang tertinggal untuk sa disini...mungkin ka harus ku pergi jauhhhhh...:) sa tau banyak yang concern bout me..thanks friend.. tapi if ko ada perasaan dengan sa..sa minta maaf sa tidak bermaksud untuk buat ko jatuh cinta ma sa..tapi...kalau hal itu terjadi...cepat2 lupakan sa..sebab sa rasa..sa teda perasaan untuk itu semua lagi..sekadar teman itu mungkin tapi bukan cinta... walaupun sa rasa i need someone tapi i think im not ready yet... bila sa pikirkan kembali..sa takut..mungkin phobia...biarla...sa tau Tuhan itu baik...dia akan sediakan...:) biarla apa adanya saya.... biar ku sendiri... :)

Monday, October 17, 2011

life like this~~~

kalau dulu..kolah segalanya[kunun] skali skarang..hurmm.macam teteda bah suma..apa suda jadi? sebab sekali ko melangkah dari jalan sa..mimang ko out of my way suda..jadi jan salahkan sa..kalau semua bukan macam dulu lagi...biarlah mungkin ada yang lagi baik di depan sana...kan sa suda cakap duuulu apapun....jagalah dia baik2..... i will not asking you to come back to me..i wish i could see you happy with your life...kan sa suda cakap juga dari dulu...once sa suda buat keputusan....there's no turning back..macam ko juga..sa suda buat keputusan sa tia mo fikir pasal ko lagi..apa2 tentang ko sa tia mo tau juga..biarlah....begitu lebih baik... apa yang suda lalau sa suda lupa....yang sa tau kita cuma kawan saja..^^ lagi best hidup skarang..walaupun urang cakap boringnya hidup ko..tapi sa ada kawan yang terbaik di sekeliling sa..yang memahami sa....terima kasihhhhh kawan2...sa sayang kamu..hihihi...jadi sa mo buat sa punya own stuff la dulu kenen baru pikir pasal benda2 yang bikin stress ni..hahha...

Monday, June 27, 2011

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tia tau la apa mo cakap lagi tapi kebenarannya..mimang perasan tu teda suda...ko fikirlah...sendiri....huhu...sedih hati tapi begitulah

Sunday, June 26, 2011

huhuh..

walaupun niari ari sa tapi ada sedikit kekesalan dalam hati sa la juga..huhu..sa harap2 diala bah juga dulu wish...tingu2 orang lain lagi dulu wish dari dia,siap kol nynyi tuk sa lagi..huhuh....dia? langsung buat slamba ja semalam..huhu...biarlah...suda jauh begini la dia buat..huhuh....kemarin sa cuma minta tolong sikit ja..huhu..langsung tia kena peduli ni....tidur adalah..huh pastu masa sa mo jalan p keja da baru cakap teda tepigi...sa mo letak tu henpon masa tu juga pun ada..huhuh....maybe ko mau sampai sa fikir 'the end' ka ni? huhuhu...please la....kalau ko tia dapat kasi inggal perempuan tu..cakap sajalah,bukan susah pun? kalau betul2 suka dia...ceh..ini mau lagi main tapuk2 ma sia..huhu...pi mati la semua perasan tu.....2nd chance suda sa bagi ni...please la hargai...ingat sa masih trust ko meh? jangan harap begitu cepat hati sa trust ko lagi..huhu...jan sampai sa cakap 'its enough~!!'ko perasan sangat kan banyak perempuan suka ko? jadi bah pa lagi...? pilih la mana satu ko mau?....huh!...kalau sa tia balas sms,pandai pula tanya,lambat balas...kalau sa sms? apa ko jawap..bisuk baru ko jawap sms sa tu...bagus nepayah balas terus la...buat sakit hati ja...ko pandai sangat betul kan? aritu sa sengaja tanya ja ko masih sms lagi ka ma dia? jawapn ko sangat ringkas tida..tapi tu nama siapa tu yang ko antar sms tu? ingat sa buta ka? pastu delete kunu suma msg inbox..ceiiii....sa peduli pa? biar ko sakit hati sa sms ma orang lain depan mata ko..ko sakit hati? tida kan? sa sengaja juga kasi tingu2 nama urang yang sms ma sia...bukan macam ko..mau juga main tapuk2...ko takut ka? pastu ada orang kol awal pagi jam 7 tu ari..kol dari upis..wahahahha..jan tipu la..miahahhaha.....sa mo ketawa.ingat senang2 ka tipu sa?.......ko simpan la kata2 ko semua tu..bukannya ko serius pun...jan la cakap pasal masa depan kalu ko pun tia berani mo face it....B******t la....huhuh.......