deep down in my heart

kenapalah kita harus bergaduh,huhu rasanya macam budak kecil... Sayakah yang tidak memahami atau ini memang dugaan...For For the past few days i was so happy... I prayed so much so it will last.. But i didnt know why is it has to be likethis Maybe ive done so much wrong and getting this as my punishment... I know im not perfect tho im human and do mistakes but for sure when i done wrong... My appologize is not enough.coz im still the same oyoe that you know before... but i tried to solve this. But diddnt know how am i going to do it anymore.. Huhuhu... I hate been crying for the whole day and not fall asleep at night... Waiting and waiting for no reason is much painful then hinjured you leg.. I know im not good... i feel weak.. I feel down,sometimes discouragement fills my heart.... Oh i must be a fool afterall... God help me to get rid of this... I know im not your good chhild but i do my best... Please bless me n him as we go through this its not my wil... But let it be according to your will.. Guide our path as we walk together..in everything we do everything we say. .. Amen